Final Outcome – A Poem

Hi everyone! Happy Tuesday!

Final Outcome

The blame resides on her shoulders,
pressing down until she can’t stand.
Breathe in deep and choke a scream,
reality has dealt another cruel hand.

Too weak to leave, too weak to stay,
this tragedy sinks down to her core.
Decaying into a pile of nothingness,
she cannot live like this anymore.

Tearing away all the beauty and grace,
her soul crumbles and her spirit turns numb.
And with nothing left to fight for,
she prepares to face the final outcome.

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You can read chapter one of Alter Reach here.

Until next time –

Jessica

Dealing With Grief

Hi everyone. Happy Friday. This week was crazy. I had the stomach flu, and was out of work Monday-Wednesday. I’m finally feeling like myself again.

I’ve been wanting to write a blog post like this for quite a while, but honestly, it isn’t something I love to talk about. It’s difficult to open up about something that hurts, but it’s also therapeutic.

I mentioned it once, briefly in an earlier post, but I didn’t elaborate. Wednesday, 8/16 was the nine year anniversary of my mother’s passing. I was already not feeling well, and the realization of the anniversary made things worse.

A little background. My mom was diagnosed with cancer and in the same year, passed away from it. The doctors thought she had a year to live, when in reality, it was months.

My Mom was one of those people that just lit up every room she walked into. She worked in my high school cafeteria, and became a mother to people I didn’t even get a long with in school. It was just who she was. I knew many kids who called her Mom, and I know she helped a lot of people through a lot of painful times in their lives.

She spent her last week in the hospital. The nurses said they had never seen so many people come to visit. It was crazy how many people came back, day after day, just to spend another second with her. Like I said, she changed people’s lives.

When Mom finally passed, I have to say, there was some relief. Taking care of a woman, who for your entire life, was so strong and independent, was the saddest thing to experience. I say it was a relief, but that feeling of relief wasn’t there for long.

I didn’t spiral into depression, but there were dark moments. There were also happy moments. I have the best father a girl could ask for, and what we went through brought us closer than we probably ever would have been. It also brought me a step mother, step sister and a niece, who I wouldn’t know if things were different.

It was hard to feel that happiness for a long time though. There were times I felt lost, angry and confused. Why my Mom, of all people? I may never know that answer. And I’ve come to terms with that, but it took a lot to get where I am. Sure, I still cry. I cried Wednesday. But I don’t let that darkness cover all the light in my life.

If you are going through or struggling with any grief, I have a few pieces of advice.

Keep up your routine, to keep yourself healthy. Sleep, eat and drink water. Don’t let yourself get so low, you hurt your health.

Talk to someone. Family, friend, counselor…whoever it is, make sure you trust them. Don’t shut yourself off from the world. Darkness is a lonely place, don’t let it consume you.

Express yourself. Whether it’s through writing, painting, cooking…find something you can pour your heart into. Every time you feel that cloud rolling in, go to that one thing that makes you feel powerful and alive.

All of this is easier said than done. It’s been nine years and I still struggle. Every time I see someone post a selfie with their mother or complain about their mother, that pang of jealousy and darkness comes rolling in; but, I never let it win.

A much more personal post, but I’ve been wanting to write it for quite a while. I hope you have a fabulous weekend!

You can keep up to date with me on Twitter & Instagram: @JessicaInspired and on Facebook: @authorjessicarachow

You can still read chapter one of Alter Reach here.

Until next time –

Jessica

Cycle – A Poem

Happy Weekend! I failed miserably at keeping up with my weekly poetry post. I’m still going to try to post poems on a semi regular basis, and I would like to start writing them again. Hopefully sharing my work will bring back that inspiration. 😊

Cycle

My heart would start relapsing,
my conscious would stop reacting.
I would dance in the fire again.

My brain would be screaming,
but my soul would be bleeding,
and the cycle would repeat over again.

The truth and lies collide,
and the pain eventually subsides.
I vow to never let it happen again.

This one was written 9 years ago. I hope you enjoy. I have a pretty busy weekend ahead, but I will try to post again this weekend. My main goal is to work more on Alter Reach.

Let me know what your weekend plans are.

You can keep up to date with me on Twitter & Instagram: @JessicaInspired and on Facebook: @authorjessicarachow

You can still read chapter one of Alter Reach here.

Until next time –

Jessica

The Ultimate Book Tag

Hey everyone! I hope you are having a fantastic week. My week has been nice and short. 😊

Doing another book tag today. I found the tag here. Not sure where the tag originated, but that’s where I found it. I tag you if you want to participate!

1. Do you get sick while reading in a car?

I don’t. I enjoy reading while traveling. Best way to pass time.

2. Harry Potter Series or the Twilight Saga?

I’m one of the weird kids who didn’t read Harry Potter when it first came out. I read Twilight first, but I’m in agreement that the Harry Potter series is better. I just have a special place in my heart for Twilight, haha.

3. Do you carry a book bag? If so, what is in it (besides books)?

Nah. Just a purse.

4. Do you smell your books?

If they are new.

5. Books with or without little illustrations?

Without. Mostly because I don’t read books with illustrations.

6. What book did you love while reading but discovered later it wasn’t quality writing?

The Twilight series, haha.

7. Do you have any funny stories involving books from your childhood?

Not really. I’m boring, haha.

9. What is the thickest book on your shelf?

Game of Thrones.

10. Do you write as well as read? Do you see yourself in the future as being an author?

Yup! In the process. Alter Reach will hopefully be out soon.

11. When did you get into reading?

High school. After reading Twilight, I started acquiring books. Now, I have to stop myself from buying all the hooks.

13. In school what was your best subject?

English, History and Art. 😊

14. If you were given a book as a present that you had read before and hated, what would you do?

Give it away or donate it.

15. What is a lesser known series that you know of that is similar to Harry Potter or the Hunger Games?

I mean. There are probably a lot of them, but nothing comes to mind at the moment.

16. What is a bad habit you always do while blogging?

Twitter.

17. What is your favorite word?

I don’t really have a favorite word.

18. Vampires or Fairies? Why?

Vampires. Because I haven’t read much with fairies.

19. Shapeshifters or Angels? Why?

Shapeshifters. That’s a spoiler for my book.

20. Spirits or Werewolves? Why?

Werewolves. Because I think they are cool.

21. Zombies or Vampires? Why?

Vampires. Because I’m just not a fan of Zombies.

22. Love Triangle or Forbidden Love?

Forbidden love, I guess.

23. And finally: Full on romance books or action-packed with a few love scenes mixed in?

Action. Not a huge fan of romance novels.

Alright, I skipped some questions, but whatever. Check the link above for the full tag. Let me know if you participate! 😊

If you want to stay up to date with me, you can follow me on Twitter & Instagram @JessicaInspired, and like my facebook page – @authorjessicarachow.

Until next time –

Jessica

Rapid Fire Book Tag

Hello and Happy Saturday! I have a three day weekend because hubby and I decided to take Monday off. We are seeing The Who Sunday night and used it as an excuse to have a day off. 

I’ll definitely post a blog about the show. I’m expecting it to be great. Downside is we have lawn seats and there is a threat of rain…so keep your fingers crossed for us! 

Today I thought I would do another tag. As always, feel free to do the tag yourself and let me know so I can read your answers. 

The original creator of the tag did a YouTube video which you can watch here.

1. Ebook or Physical book?

Definitely physical. I like the idea behind ebooks, but I rarely read them. I love to have the physical book in my hands (and on my shelf).

2. Paperback or Hardcover?

Paperback. They are easier to read, and you don’t have to worry about storing the sleeve somewhere safe while you read. 

3. Online or In Store Shopping? 

I buy the majority of my books online because you can’t beat the price. 99.9% of the time I can get a book for much cheaper and shipped free on Amazon. I do, however, love to shop around used bookstores. 

4. Trilogies or Series? 

I think I’ll go with trilogies. 

5. Heroes or Villains?

Learning the backstory and motivations behind the villain in a story, if done right, can be very compelling and surprising, so I will go with villains. 

6. A book you want everyone to read?

Illuminae – Amie Kaufman and Jay Kristoff. You’ve seen me talk about this book a million times. Go read it. 😛

7. Recommend an underrated book?

While I don’t think it’s underrated, it’s not as well known as it should be. Eve: The Awakening – Jenna Moreci. 

8. The last book you finished?

Daughter of Smoke and Bone – Laini Taylor 

9. The last book you bought? 

I’m cheating a little because I am about to buy this book today, so I’m using it as my answer haha. Before The Fall – Noah Hawley

10. Weirdest thing you’ve used as a bookmark?

My phone. Because reading is more important than social interaction 😉 

11. Used books: Yes or No?

Yes! As stated previously, I love used book stores and used books. 

12. Top three favorite genres? 

Fantasy, Sci-fi, Mystery/Thriller 

13. Borrow or Buy?

Buy. That way I have no pressure to return it. My bank account, however, enjoys borrowing books. 

14. Characters or Plot?

Characters. If I’m connecting with the characters, I am much more likely to stick through to the end of the book. 

15. Long Books or Short Books?

Tough question, because it depends on my mood. But I guess I’ll go with long. 

16. Long Chapters or Short Chapters?

Short chapters. I seem to fly through books with shorter chapters no matter how long the book is. 

17. Name the first three books you think of…

Six of Crows – Leigh Bardugo 

Passenger- Alexandra Bracken 

If I Stay – Gayle Forman 

18. Books the make you laugh or cry?

Laugh. 

19. Our World or Fictional Worlds?

Fictional worlds. Not sure why. I like the escape. 

20. Audiobooks: Yes or No

For very specific books, I enjoy audio books (Illuminae). Otherwise, no.

21. Do you ever judge a book by its cover? 

Once and a while, but I try not to. 

22. Book to Movie or Book to TV?

If done correctly, book to movie. Doesn’t happen often though, haha. 

23. A Movie or TV Show you preferred to its Book?

Vampire Diaries. I just couldn’t get into the books, but I watched the show all the way to the end. 

24. Series or Stand Alone?

Stand alone. 
That’s all I have for you today. Expect a post about about The Who concert, probably Monday since I’ll be home late Sunday. I hope you enjoy your weekend! 

You can still read Chapter One of Alter Reach here.

As always, if you want to stay up to date with me, you can follow me on Twitter & Instagram @JessicaInspired, and like my facebook page.

Until next time –
Jessica

Opposite Books Tag

Hi everyone! I hope your week is going okay! I wanted to do a quick tag I saw on YouTube. I tag you if you’d like to participate, just let me know so I can read your responses!

First book in your collection/Last book you bought

I believe the first book I ever bought was The Silver Kiss by Annette Kurtos Klause. I rented it from the library in middle school, read it in one night and then asked for it for my birthday. 

The last book I book I bought was Gone by Michael Grant. I bought it on a whim in a great little used book store. I’ll review it when I get to it. 

A cheap book/An expensive book


I just picked up The Grim Legacy by Polly Shulman from the same book store I bought Gone from. I believe it was $3.

For my expensive book, I’m going to go with Illuminae by Amie Kauffman and Jay Kristoff…not because the book was super expensive, but because between the hardcover copy and the audible copy, I spent more than I ever have.

A book with a male protagonist/a book with a female protagonist

Male protagonist: The Maze Runner by James Dashner. 

Female protagonist: The 5th Wave by Rick Yancey.

A book you read fast/A book that took you forever to read

A book that I read quickly: The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins. I actually read this series in three days. 

A book that took me forever: The Fellowship of the Ring by J.R. R. Tolkien. I actually really enjoyed this book but it wasn’t an easy read for me, so it took me quite a while to get through. 

Pretty cover/Ugly cover 

Pretty cover: Daughter of Smoke and Bone by Lani Taylor. I bought this mainly because the cover drew me in. So beautiful. 

Ugly cover: The Vampire Diaries by L.J. Smith. Eh. I’m just not a fan. I find it a little predictable and boring.

A national book/An international book

I’m guessing this means a book that takes place where you live versus a book that takes place in another country. 

National: Eve The Awakening by Jenna Moreci. This book takes place at a college in California. 

International: Harry Potter. Sorry for the obvious answer but, hey, it works. 

 A thin book/A thick book

A thin book: Wake by Lisa McMan

A thick book: A Game of Thrones by George R. R. Martin

A fiction book/A non-fiction book

Fiction: Cinder by Marissa Meyer. A fairytale retelling with sci-fi elements, which I haven’t read yet, because I am so far behind on my TBR. Are you surprised? I’m guessing not. 😛

Non-Fiction: Creation Basics & Beyond by a lot of scientists at th Institute of Creation Research. A really interesting look at science from a biblical stand point. 

Very romantic book/Action book

I don’t own a ton of romantic books, but I will go with Twilight by Stephanie Meyer. The main plot of this series is love, so it fits, I guess. 

Action…I will go with Six of Crows by Leigh Bardugo. It’s about criminals trying to pull off the greatest heist. Action packed!

A book that made you happy/A book that made you sad

A book that made me happy: I want to go with Illuminae again. Not because it’s a super happy story, but because it was such a good book, I’m still on a high and I read it almost a year ago. Haha. 

A book that made me sad…I will go with another non-fiction on my shelf. My Story by Elizabeth Smart. Elizabeth Smart was kidnapped by two pretty sick individuals and she writes about what happened during that time. Ugh…such a difficult book to read. 

 

That’s all I have for you tonight. Good news everyone, tomorrow is Thursday. We are very close to Friday! Don’t forget to let me know if you participate in the tag. I will have another movie review for you next blog, so stay tuned for that!

You can still read Chapter One of Alter Reach here.

As always, if you want to stay up to date with me, you can follow me on Twitter & Instagram @JessicaInspired, and like my facebook page.

Until next time –
Jessica

Jessica’s Monthly Goals

Happy Saturday! Today is Canal Days in the town I live in. It’s a great event where they block off streets and have live music, food and vendors. Really looking forward to it. 

I’m planning on posting two blogs today. I figured it was time to do my monthly goals. May kind of got away from me, so my results might be a little painful. 

May Results:

  1. Post 3 blogs per week including my weekly Poetry post. – I failed miserably at this. Sorry about that. I will make this a goal for June as well. 
  2. Get some pictures of myself taken by hubby. – Another fail to add to the list. Not starting off great, am I? Haha. 
  3. Go to Church every Sunday. – Almost did this, so I’m giving myself a half of a point. 
  4. Update Twitter & Facebook four times a week. – I think I did this!
  5. Cook one new recipe a week. – Not sure it was one a week but I tried some new recipes this month, so I will call this completed. 
  6. Maintain a happy, healthy environment for our new fish kids. – This is happening. 😊
  7. Read 4 books (or more). – Nope. 
  8. Lose 5lbs. – Nope. 
  9. Read from the Bible nightly. – Nope.
  10. Write a new piece of poetry. – Nope. 

GOALS COMPLETED:  3.5 out of 10

Well…I failed miserably you guys. But, not every month will be successful. I will keep a positive outlook on June!

June Goals

  1. Post 3 blogs per week including my weekly Poetry post. 
  2. Get some pictures of myself taken by hubby. 
  3. Go to Church every Sunday.
  4. Update Twitter & Facebook four times a week. 
  5. Cook one new recipe a week. 
  6. Plan a trip for our two year anniversary.
  7. Read 4 books (or more). 
  8. Lose 5lbs.
  9. Read from the Bible nightly. 
  10. Write a new piece of poetry.


Mostly the same goals as last month. Let’s see if I can do better this month. Do you have any goals for the month of June? Let me know in the comments. 

You can read Chapter One of Alter Reach here.

If you want to stay up to date with me, you can follow me on Twitter & Instagram @JessicaInspired, and like my facebook page.

Don’t forget to check out my review of Kong: Skull Island Review with my husband on YouTube!

Until next time –
Jessica

Jessica’s Weekly Poetry Post x2

Good morning and Happy Memorial Day! I hope you’re all having a great weekend. I missed last week’s Poetry Post, so I thought I would give you two poems today to make up for it.

Enjoy! 🙂

Grand Finale

My world
began collapsing
a long time ago,
and I’m sorry you
got crushed when
the final pieces fell.

Replace A Heart

So broken, beyond repair,
soul forsaken without a care.
Humanity ripped apart,
a cold stone to replace a heart.

Snow white in a bed of thorns,
nightmare, comfort forlorn.
Self-esteem ripped apart,
bloodied hole to replace a heart.

 

Let me know what you did this weekend in the comments below. I have lots of blogs planned for the coming week so stay tuned!

You can still read Chapter One of Alter Reach here.

As always, if you want to stay up to date with me, you can follow me on Twitter & Instagram @JessicaInspired, and like my facebook page.

Don’t forget to check out my review of Kong: Skull Island Review with my husband on YouTube!

Until next time –
Jessica

Writing Resources I Find Useful Pt. 2

Hello everyone!

I kind of fell off the face of the earth the last few days and I apologise for that. It’s been a crazy couple of weeks and I am looking forward to a long, three day weekend ahead to recoup and catch up on all the blogs I planned to put out, along with continuing the progress on Alter Reach!

Tonight I thought I’d put together another list of writing resources I find useful. You can read my first list here. 

1. Jeff Goin’s blog is fantastic. He has advice on writing, publishing, setting up your blog…just about anything you need advice on, he has. He does have some paid services, but I think you can find quite a bit of useful info that he offers for free. 

2. Mandi Lynn is a YouTuber/Published author who has tons of useful info to share…from outlining to publishing options, she is a great resource I find myself referring to when I need help. 

3. Beyond Your Blog is a great resource. There is some advice, along with writing opportunities to help you take your writing to the next level. 

4. Every Writer – tips, tricks and contests galore. This is a great resource for inspiration.

5. The Write Life – I follow this on Facebook, and they always have great articles and memes to spread inspiration and laughs along the way. I just discovered their actual site. It has many useful articles and links to other great resources (some of which, I have mentioned.)

6. I mentioned Well-Storied in my last post of useful resources but I never mentioned the Facebook group. If you’re a Facebook user, search for Your Write Dream (what Well-Storied used to be named). You should find a Facebook group you can join. It is fantastic, there are so many friendly people willing to give advice and help you out. I’ve gained a lot of inspiration from that group. 

7. #AmWriting – if you’re a Twitter user, this is a must-use hashtag. You can find resources and other authors to connect too. I use it every time I post and it’s helped me build my platform more than I think I would have, had I not used it. 

8. Narrative Ink Editing – while not an advice resource, I figured in this second installment of resources, I would touch on some of the editors I’ve been researching. If you’re in need of an editor, I’d highly recommend checking this one out. It’s on my top list of editors I’m considering. 

9. Think Written has a cool article with 365 writing prompts. When I’m feeling uninspired, I seek out writing prompts. Here’s some fun ones if you’re feeling the need. 

10. Descriptionari is a cool site where people post descriptions of all sorts of things. It’s a great place to get inspiration for descriptions.

That’s all I have for you today. I hope you find some of these useful. I will try to get back on track with regular posts 😉

You can still read Chapter One of Alter Reach here.

As always, if you want to stay up to date with me, you can follow me on Twitter & Instagram @JessicaInspired, and like my facebook page.

Don’t forget to check out my review of Kong: Skull Island Review with my husband on YouTube!

Until next time –
Jessica

Jessica’s Weekly Poetry Post 

Hey there! Sorry for not posting my usual yesterday, but I decided I needed a day to spend with my family. I haven’t written much about it, but I lost my mom in 2008 to cancer and Mother’s Day has not been the easiest day since then. I had a great weekend all together regardless. I have a fantastic step mother and a fantastic mother in law, so I enjoyed it all the same. I hope you all had a great weekend. 

Enjoy the poem 😊

                     Light of Hope

A light of hope flickers,
in silence of the night, 
vivifying this somber room,
crushing eager darkness,
and masking all misery,
beyond these four walls.

You can still read Chapter One of Alter Reach here.

As always, if you want to stay up to date with me, you can follow me on Twitter & Instagram @JessicaInspired, and like my facebook page.

Don’t forget to check out my review of Kong: Skull Island Review with my husband on YouTube!

Until next time –
Jessica