Final Outcome – A Poem

Hi everyone! Happy Tuesday!

Final Outcome

The blame resides on her shoulders,
pressing down until she can’t stand.
Breathe in deep and choke a scream,
reality has dealt another cruel hand.

Too weak to leave, too weak to stay,
this tragedy sinks down to her core.
Decaying into a pile of nothingness,
she cannot live like this anymore.

Tearing away all the beauty and grace,
her soul crumbles and her spirit turns numb.
And with nothing left to fight for,
she prepares to face the final outcome.

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You can read chapter one of Alter Reach here.

Until next time –

Jessica

Dealing With Grief

Hi everyone. Happy Friday. This week was crazy. I had the stomach flu, and was out of work Monday-Wednesday. I’m finally feeling like myself again.

I’ve been wanting to write a blog post like this for quite a while, but honestly, it isn’t something I love to talk about. It’s difficult to open up about something that hurts, but it’s also therapeutic.

I mentioned it once, briefly in an earlier post, but I didn’t elaborate. Wednesday, 8/16 was the nine year anniversary of my mother’s passing. I was already not feeling well, and the realization of the anniversary made things worse.

A little background. My mom was diagnosed with cancer and in the same year, passed away from it. The doctors thought she had a year to live, when in reality, it was months.

My Mom was one of those people that just lit up every room she walked into. She worked in my high school cafeteria, and became a mother to people I didn’t even get a long with in school. It was just who she was. I knew many kids who called her Mom, and I know she helped a lot of people through a lot of painful times in their lives.

She spent her last week in the hospital. The nurses said they had never seen so many people come to visit. It was crazy how many people came back, day after day, just to spend another second with her. Like I said, she changed people’s lives.

When Mom finally passed, I have to say, there was some relief. Taking care of a woman, who for your entire life, was so strong and independent, was the saddest thing to experience. I say it was a relief, but that feeling of relief wasn’t there for long.

I didn’t spiral into depression, but there were dark moments. There were also happy moments. I have the best father a girl could ask for, and what we went through brought us closer than we probably ever would have been. It also brought me a step mother, step sister and a niece, who I wouldn’t know if things were different.

It was hard to feel that happiness for a long time though. There were times I felt lost, angry and confused. Why my Mom, of all people? I may never know that answer. And I’ve come to terms with that, but it took a lot to get where I am. Sure, I still cry. I cried Wednesday. But I don’t let that darkness cover all the light in my life.

If you are going through or struggling with any grief, I have a few pieces of advice.

Keep up your routine, to keep yourself healthy. Sleep, eat and drink water. Don’t let yourself get so low, you hurt your health.

Talk to someone. Family, friend, counselor…whoever it is, make sure you trust them. Don’t shut yourself off from the world. Darkness is a lonely place, don’t let it consume you.

Express yourself. Whether it’s through writing, painting, cooking…find something you can pour your heart into. Every time you feel that cloud rolling in, go to that one thing that makes you feel powerful and alive.

All of this is easier said than done. It’s been nine years and I still struggle. Every time I see someone post a selfie with their mother or complain about their mother, that pang of jealousy and darkness comes rolling in; but, I never let it win.

A much more personal post, but I’ve been wanting to write it for quite a while. I hope you have a fabulous weekend!

You can keep up to date with me on Twitter & Instagram: @JessicaInspired and on Facebook: @authorjessicarachow

You can still read chapter one of Alter Reach here.

Until next time –

Jessica

Cycle – A Poem

Happy Weekend! I failed miserably at keeping up with my weekly poetry post. I’m still going to try to post poems on a semi regular basis, and I would like to start writing them again. Hopefully sharing my work will bring back that inspiration. 😊

Cycle

My heart would start relapsing,
my conscious would stop reacting.
I would dance in the fire again.

My brain would be screaming,
but my soul would be bleeding,
and the cycle would repeat over again.

The truth and lies collide,
and the pain eventually subsides.
I vow to never let it happen again.

This one was written 9 years ago. I hope you enjoy. I have a pretty busy weekend ahead, but I will try to post again this weekend. My main goal is to work more on Alter Reach.

Let me know what your weekend plans are.

You can keep up to date with me on Twitter & Instagram: @JessicaInspired and on Facebook: @authorjessicarachow

You can still read chapter one of Alter Reach here.

Until next time –

Jessica

Writing Resources I Find Useful Pt. 2

Hello everyone!

I kind of fell off the face of the earth the last few days and I apologise for that. It’s been a crazy couple of weeks and I am looking forward to a long, three day weekend ahead to recoup and catch up on all the blogs I planned to put out, along with continuing the progress on Alter Reach!

Tonight I thought I’d put together another list of writing resources I find useful. You can read my first list here. 

1. Jeff Goin’s blog is fantastic. He has advice on writing, publishing, setting up your blog…just about anything you need advice on, he has. He does have some paid services, but I think you can find quite a bit of useful info that he offers for free. 

2. Mandi Lynn is a YouTuber/Published author who has tons of useful info to share…from outlining to publishing options, she is a great resource I find myself referring to when I need help. 

3. Beyond Your Blog is a great resource. There is some advice, along with writing opportunities to help you take your writing to the next level. 

4. Every Writer – tips, tricks and contests galore. This is a great resource for inspiration.

5. The Write Life – I follow this on Facebook, and they always have great articles and memes to spread inspiration and laughs along the way. I just discovered their actual site. It has many useful articles and links to other great resources (some of which, I have mentioned.)

6. I mentioned Well-Storied in my last post of useful resources but I never mentioned the Facebook group. If you’re a Facebook user, search for Your Write Dream (what Well-Storied used to be named). You should find a Facebook group you can join. It is fantastic, there are so many friendly people willing to give advice and help you out. I’ve gained a lot of inspiration from that group. 

7. #AmWriting – if you’re a Twitter user, this is a must-use hashtag. You can find resources and other authors to connect too. I use it every time I post and it’s helped me build my platform more than I think I would have, had I not used it. 

8. Narrative Ink Editing – while not an advice resource, I figured in this second installment of resources, I would touch on some of the editors I’ve been researching. If you’re in need of an editor, I’d highly recommend checking this one out. It’s on my top list of editors I’m considering. 

9. Think Written has a cool article with 365 writing prompts. When I’m feeling uninspired, I seek out writing prompts. Here’s some fun ones if you’re feeling the need. 

10. Descriptionari is a cool site where people post descriptions of all sorts of things. It’s a great place to get inspiration for descriptions.

That’s all I have for you today. I hope you find some of these useful. I will try to get back on track with regular posts πŸ˜‰

You can still read Chapter One of Alter Reach here.

As always, if you want to stay up to date with me, you can follow me on Twitter & Instagram @JessicaInspired, and like my facebook page.

Don’t forget to check out my review of Kong: Skull Island Review with my husband on YouTube!

Until next time –
Jessica